Showing posts with label Anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Anxiety. Show all posts
Friday, January 17, 2014
Join Me in the "Made To Crave" Online Bible Study!
It's time to do this - full out.
I read Lysa TerKeurst's book Made To Crave about two years ago. It made an impact on me then, as it helped me get in the right frame of mind to lose weight by giving the issue over to God. I've lost over 30 pounds since then, but something is still off.
I have about 60 - 70 pounds yet to go, and I want to reach my goal. I've discovered that I still slip into old habits of eating under stress, especially sugary foods. I don't always remember to ask God for the help I need to get everything under control, especially in the last few months dealing with an unusual schedule - unusual for me, anyway. In addition to writing, working on getting my first novel published, completing writing assignments while looking for more, and my family's activities, I took on a part-time retail job because we really need the money. My schedule changes every week, so I'm trying to fit everything in without losing my mind, especially without being able to having a relatively set schedule. Sometimes I eat at odd hours, at times eating healthy stuff yet also grabbing whatever on occasion (more occasions than I'd like to admit). I fit in workouts when I can...and I really miss being able to make it to spin classes on a regular basis. I also miss my Pilates sessions, even though I do some mat work at home. I've been going through some major bouts of insomnia because of the schedule and the stress. And the more stressed I become, the more often I hit a drive-thru so I don't have to cook at 10PM, or I grab junk just to get something into my stomach.
It's time for this cycle to STOP. So when this opportunity to read Made To Crave again, in conjunction with a Proverbs 31 Ministries Bible Study, came up...well, I literally jumped at the chance. The invitation to participate caused me to get up out of my office chair and thank God. This is exactly what I need right now, to get me out of this anxious and depressed rut. Since I read the book the first time without studying the corresponding Bible verses at the same time, I only got partial help from it. I feel that doing this in its entirety will be just what I need to finally get it together and make all of the necessary changes in my life to get to where God wants me to be.
If you feel this will help you as well, I invite you to join me and many others in this online Bible study. You can find out more and sign up here. Let's make 2014 the year we do everything we need to do to be our best. I'm excited to start - and hope you'll do it with me!
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Monday, February 4, 2013
Biggest Loser 14 - Overcoming Fear and Bullying at the Halfway Point
Here we are at the halfway point of the season with the remaining contestants, and thankfully I'm way past the halfway point of getting over the flu so I can recap this week! Since we're in the middle of the season, you know there will be even more twists and turns.
The main twist this week involved the weigh-in. Dice were presented, one die for each team with their faces on the sides. Each trainer would roll the dice, and the player showing on top would have to represent the team on the scale. Only his or her weight would count. This would not happen until right before the weigh-in, so nobody would know who it was going to be...except the white team, because only Danni is left to represent. Jillian was nervious about this, since Danni had pulled a big number the week before and they didn't know if she could do it again.
This twist caused anxiety and fear to come out in some of the players, particularly Gina and Jackson. Gina cried, which set Bob off. He really laid into her about all of the tears and why she always thinks the worst about herself. Eventually he took her outside to have a calmer discussion, letting her know that he sees her as a major threat in the house and she's capable of much more than she gives herself credit for. She's always afraid that she'll let people down. She vowed to start seeing herself the way Bob sees her. Jackson had a similar talk with Dolvett about always feeling like he wasn't good enough, and Dolvett made him repeat over and over that he IS good enough.
Fear is an interesting thing. I know I've talked before about it, but I can't drive the point home enough. Fear makes you doubt yourself. When you doubt you can do something, it messes with your head so that you can't do it...which only makes you doubt yourself more and fear the next challenge in your life, whatever it may be. I've been there. I STILL struggle with it. But I've begun to break that vicious cycle, putting myself out there more to try different things and push myself harder. I have to block out those who don't believe in me and prove them wrong - in fact, I have to prove that old negative inner voice wrong and just go for it. And as I build up small victories (and larger ones) my courage and confidence grow. That's what the contestants on the ranch go through, in front of the world for all to see.
Speaking of challenges, who in the world comes up with the ones for the show? As my friend Shannon on Twitter said, it looked like the set of Wipeout. Walking on a beam, dodging swinging objects and getting plates to the other side...back and forth several times...just looked so cruel. I would like to see the people who designed this challenge have to do it! And on top of that, they had to correctly put the plates with calorie counts on them with the right pictures. Finally Danni won...proving that this one-woman show can rock anything. She got to hear from her family, which had to be especially sweet since she has no teammates to lean on at this point.
The teen ambassadors had their own challenge, thankfully a much nicer one. They had to find ways to set an example for other kids around them. Biingo started his own fitness club. Sunny led her classmates in a circuit workout she created. Her parents really want her to be a doctor, but I think she has a future as a trainer. She would still be helping people get healthy! Lindsay bravely spoke in front of her school about bullying - what it did to her and how it affects others. She made them pledge to stop bullying altogether. Then she was surprised by pop star Cody Simpson, who also spoke and gave a little concert for her school. I'm really proud of her...I don't know if I could have stood before my school (including my bullies) and spoken so eloquently. Maybe she will stop some of these kids from turning into adult bullies; we know that adults are also still ridiculed by those who never grew up.
The last chance workouts were brutal. Jillian actually made Danni's fun, but she did have to get over her fear of heights to jump from a wall into a pit. Once she did, she wanted to keep on doing it! It's always good to mix it up to keep from getting bored, and use those muscles you didn't even know you had. Dolvett invited Laila Ali to lead his team in a boxing workout. It would be so cool to have a lesson from her. (And if she brought her former Dancing With The Stars partner Maks with her to gave me a cha-cha lesson...all the better!) She actually struggled with her weight as a kid, so she could relate. For Bob's team, it was basically a beating in the gym, making all of them work until he thought Alex was sweating enough. And then he even took a picture of her after she collapsed over the treadmill!
The time to face the scale arrived, and the trainers rolled the dice. Joe represented red, Jeff blue, and Danni white (of course). Jillian was worried about Danni beating Joe's percentage, but she did. I have to say she's my favorite this season! It came down to blue, and Jeff didn't lose enough to beat Joe. The blue team went to their first elimination of the season. I pretty much expected that they would send David home, considering that he has a leg injury and even when he give it his all he doesn't burn as much as the others. But seeing him at home, he's really making progress! He looks amazing and is a much better police officer now that he's fitter.
Next week, everyone goes to singles! The teams are dissolved and it's every player for himself/herself. It also looks like Jillian helps Jeff get to the root of his problem and they bond. I can't wait to see what happens next...how about you?
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Friday, March 23, 2012
My Own Personal March Madness


March Madness has new meaning for me.
I guess it started as February
Madness, with the new job I'd started in the middle of the month. At first things seemed to be going well...it was a medical billing position with a lot to learn but I was picking up some of it quickly. I was also told that it takes more than two months to really get everything down, so I kept that in mind as I took on my tasks.
Madness, with the new job I'd started in the middle of the month. At first things seemed to be going well...it was a medical billing position with a lot to learn but I was picking up some of it quickly. I was also told that it takes more than two months to really get everything down, so I kept that in mind as I took on my tasks.
As March began, more pressure was put on me to know everything immediately. (Mind you - I'd only been on the job for two weeks at this point.) I was thrown into several tasks that I had not been trained for, and if I asked questions because I wanted to do it right I was met with anger for asking. But if I tried to do it on my own they got angry as well. Over and over, everytime I didn't do it right or asked a question, I was told that if I couldn't get this part of the job down then I wouldn't be able to stay on. (I was also misled as to my job description when I was hired, but I won't get into that now.) When I asked for help so I could learn it properly, I was told to just keep trying by myself and was refused help or additional training.
Needless to say, this all was bound to come to a head. And it did on this past Monday. I don't have the job anymore, and I'm looking for something else to help pay this bills. I believe this is actually a blessing, since the way I was treated gave me panic attacks and I almost threw up a few times at work. My thought is that they decided they didn't need the additional person in the billing department, but instead of telling me that they put pressure on me so I couldn't perform my job. You also can't perform the job if you are not trained properly. It's been a rough week, but I'm finally able to think about it this way...not every job is the right fit for every person. There are good days and rough days no matter where you work, but there are also times when you realize that something didn't work out because it was a bad fit.
I'm thankful for the month's worth of paychecks, and with that I move on. I've already been out and about putting in applications at several retail establishments. That kind of position is more "me", and I'll be able to balance my writing with this type of job. And I have an interview at one of them on Tuesday, so I would appreciate your prayers.
I know God will lead me to the right place, and He's taught me some very important lessons this past month. I appreciate the beautiful weather He provided this week, to go out and apply at other places and help me get back into my fitness routine. Being able to take long walks outside is helping me clear my head and think, along with working the tension out of my body. Plus my editing and revisions are moving along better without the anxiety and pressure playing repeatedly in my head.
I trust God. I have faith in Him. And I know He will provide so I'm operating now from a place of calmness. He doesn't want me to be anxious for anything, but to place my trust in Him. So I will make it through my March Madness and into peace and joy...and I will be a better person for the experience.
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